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Coldplay - Fix You (Boyce Avenue feat. Tyler Ward acoustic cover) on iTunes

This is my recent favorite cover song. Boyce Avenue is amazing, always!

Coldplay - Fix You

Lyrics

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Putting My Feelings Straight.

Part of my life

Before I start typing this paragraph, I was strangely wondering why I want to write this text. I guess I could say, now everything looks cluttered and complicated, and I want someone to listen, just listen. I don’t say that I have no one that wants to listen, I know I have so many people who love me. I just, don’t know how to tell them, and now I am trying to organize my unclear feelings in this text. However, my brain says that now I’m pampering my sad feelings, and avoiding happiness to come in, but my heart says that I am doing right, I should express what things inside to get my joy back. So I follow my heart.

I’m crying now, I really miss my mom. She is the most important, the most precious person in my world and I don’t want to be apart anymore. I haven’t met my family yet for about 11 weeks, I feel like loss of energy, loss of spirit. I didn’t use to be such a spoiled kid who can’t do anything without mom, I’m a strong and independent, I’m not easy to be quitter, but I think my recent environment makes everything get worse. 

I start telling about my recent dwelling condition. For about 2 weeks I wake up every day in my tired brain and body. Every morning I wonder why I get a bad rest, what I was thinking about and what I was dreaming of and I ask myself if I was praying before I fell asleep. In latest 3 days, I was a mushy in the night and getting swollen panda eyes in the morning mirror. A fool me, I’m not a person like that, really. 

I guess the reason why is I force myself to accept unacceptable things. Then I ask myself if I’m not an easygoing person. But, No! I have met so many hardships in my life and I have succeeded to handle all of them. I’m habituated with difficulties and I’m used to accept bad things. Then how ‘unacceptable’ they can be? 

My uncle is sooooooo rash. Hard-hearted. Stubborn. Irritable. I don’t want to remember what he did to my auntie and my cousins. He is sometimes kind, but I don’t know, he can be ‘bad’ instantly without clear reasons. He hits his family members, and calls them “fool”. I’m prohibited to phone in the evening, and also in the night. What?

He never understands that I’m totally tired after office work. He even asks me to do tiring house works  and I end up with no energy. He scolds my auntie and me when we chat as he says that our voices are too loud, what? We’re almost whispering!

And my auntie, I feel like I don’t get attention from her, in almost anything. No, I’m not begging for attention, it just makes me miss my mom, worse and worse.

In the office, I meet so many troubles I can’t handle all. Someone blames me because of mistake I didn’t do, out loud. I have no strength to say the truth. So I end up with tears, and letting him in misunderstood. Now, actually this problem haven’t been solved, but I think that is not too bad if I start forgetting this problem and pretend like “I don’t care”.

Best of Best Friends

I miss my best friends too. Friends, it seems like I’m getting weak now. I know I should stand it, I know. But keep telling me about your happy world please. The feelings of be loved, be needed, be missed, are the greatest things that might heal my wounds. 

  

 Then I want to talk about someone, I love. He is there when I happy and always there when I sad. I know he is waiting, I know he will be listening everything that I even don’t understand what is it. But boy, can you understand that if I don’t tell something, it is not that I don’t want to, it is just I don’t know HOW. I just want you to understand, that what I want is you staying there, don’t go anywhere. Thanks for being my friend, my best friend, my brother, and even my boyfriend. I love you. Really do!

One person I glad to meet here is such an angel. He is like my father, he is like my friend. He even lets me cry when I want to. But I really rarely meet him. That makes me like have no friend here. God..

Whenever I get a trouble I close my eyes talk to myself, “God is beside me, and He is all that I need. God is beside me, and He is all that I need. God is beside me, and He is all that I need.” , “It is not that hard, it is going to be ‘SOLVED’ ”. Make it helps, God, please.  God, hug me when I feel like alone and guide me when I don’t know what to do. Amiiin. 

 

And these are my captures when I was happy HERE. I was ever happy HERE, I hope I will be back, soon.:)